December 19th 2014 – The Day I Bury My Daddy

Daddy Memorial Card for Family

Well, here we are. The day has finally come to lay my Daddy's remains to rest at the Florida Veteran's Cemetery in Bushnell, FL. Christmas Eve will be the 10 month anniversary of his passing. It took that long for Mia to wake up, recover, learn how to walk and move and live on her own all over again. It took that long for us to work up the nerve to say goodbye to him in this final and forever sort of way. The circumstances of my Daddy's passing were atypical to say the least. There was no Continue Reading

How this year shaped up

Did I mention I was heavily medicated to attend this wedding?

It feels like five lifetimes have passed since I wrote this post on 2/21/14 discussing my awesome, happy, wonderful agenda for the first half of 2014.  If anyone needed proof that I am not a psychic, there it is in writing, people. But despite the massive detour life took on 2/23/14, things have started to level out. And by 'level out' I mean 'get fucking busy' again. In a good way, though! I legitimately haven't had time to blog and it hasn't been because I've lived in a hospital or been Continue Reading

Grace Visits, Ali “Turns Back On,” and a Return to San Fran

I haven't blogged in a hot minute and I have no idea why. So much has happened and my memory is so bad, I really suck for not getting stuff down as it was happening. So this post will be a catch-up of sorts. I have events I should have documented, but I think the more interesting thing is how I've emotionally changed in the last month. Grace Visits: Around the 6 month anniversary of Daddy's D-Day, Grace and Aaron came to visit. Before this visit I had started to see friends again but in very Continue Reading

The Mother Effin’ FEELS

Six months since I lost my Daddy. Three months since I started therapy. One month since I brought Mia home. And about two weeks since I noticed I was FEELING things again. Feels. So many feels. When I say "noticed I was feeling..." I mean the following: I feel something,... but I don't know what. I feel angry and am not sure if it's justified. I feel sad, and I absolutely know that's justified. I feel happy! Like, carefree! Now I feel guilty for feeling happy... But how Continue Reading

Goodbye Moet, Hello Belle!

So weird yet cool looking!

Sooo.... I BOUGHT A NEW CAR! :) Moet the Mazda 3 You guys know the story of how I got my car, Moet the Mazda 3, right? It was Fall 2007, I had just graduated from UCF, and my stepbrother needed a car. My Dad offered to pay off my Cavalier and give it to him if I wanted to get something new, so I took him up on the offer and used my graduation money to buy a 2007 Mazda 3 iTouring. I did weeks of research online and when I went out to buy a car, I knew EXACTLY which car I wanted. And Continue Reading

Five Things I’m Feelin’ Right Now

Grass, seating, mulch, yard art, and my beautiful little Daddy-birthday-bloom.

Every once in awhile I get an urge to write about totally random stuff I'm loving. These posts end up as snapshots in time and are some of my favorite to go back and read. So while life is totally freakin' nuts right now, and about to get EVEN MOAR NUTS when Mia goes home, there are some totally random things I'm feelin' at the moment. Hemlock Grove Season 2: Yes I am totally addicted to this Netflix series, weird and supernatural though it may be. Vince and I discovered the first season Continue Reading